Hello, welcome to the first post on Thursday reflections!  I decided to make Thursdays my reflection days, and on these days, I come to terms about the people in my life, the things I have to do and I haven’t gotten around to doing, the regrets and the simple blessings that life has offered me and everything else that I get to pick on along the line. This last Thursday, my thoughts were mainly about myself and how I have been navigating through life, my defining moments and how I have grown precisely. My life isn’t perfect but I am grateful to my friends, my family, and myself.  Now that we are here, I will love to share the ways I have been able to keep my sanity and be myself. Because during the course of my Thursday reflection, it also occurred to me that what is happening now counts, therefore I am dwelling on every moment.

WHAT I DID

1.     The decision to stay alone

I am never going to regret doing this because of the rate at which I enjoy my solitude and personal space. Truthfully, I almost spent the other half of the rent on other stuff because I thought I will die of boredom if I stay alone. After thinking about it again, I made the decision to stay alone not because I thought of a way to overcome boredom but because I didn’t want to lose the trust of the person who gave me the rent. I am in love with my space now and I feel so much comfort about it. When I am alone with myself, I realize I didn’t feel bored as I thought that I would.  I started talking to myself a lot, which turned to an activity I greatly enjoy. Talking to myself about my dreams, my flaws, and everything really helped. I used to do this when I had a roommate but it never felt as right as it does now that I am alone undisturbed. Staying alone is one of the ways that I feel has really helped me this year.

2.     Changed my environment (It was on a Thursday)

I stayed in one hostel for 3 years and leaving was hard, but in the end, I had to and I moved to a new environment. This new environment really helped me in ways I didn’t think of before. I forged new relationships, I cleaned the slate and began a wonderful friendship with two of my old friends and we are really kicking it off, I cut off people who aren’t adding to my growth and I put people in their appropriate places in my life. Moreover, I really like my new hostel and I am so happy I got the space.

3.     Accepted things as they are

Truthfully, I used to have a hard time as regards to accepting things as they are. It includes knowing I can’t force myself into relationships that aren’t working out. Accepting the fact that my crush doesn’t like me back (seriously if your crush has ever liked you back, let us know in the comments section, please.). It is knowing things won’t always work out to my desires and life doesn’t revolve around me. I learned that people aren’t what you think of them to be, and there is nothing to do about it except to accept it as it is. People won’t love you just because you love them. Accepting things as they are really helped me in self-development and one thing I realized is life got easier and my heartfelt lighter.

‘I learned that people aren’t what you think of them to be, and there is nothing to do about it except to accept it as it is. People won’t love you just because you love them. Accepting things as they really are really helped me in self-development and one thing I realized is life got easier and my heartfelt lighter.’

WHAT I AM DOING

Recently, I got the cassiedaves blog planner and there is a part of the blog planner that that is about taking stock. Lately, what I have been doing is mostly what generally interests and what I feel I have to do, for other people in some cases. So, using the Taking stock format, I am going to list what I am doing.

●        Reading

I am reading Gender knot by Allan G. Johnson and Pretty Little Liars by Sara Shepard.

●      Wishing

I am wishing for a better phone (iPhone 11 pro max or Samsung s20 ultra precisely) and wishing for freedom. I am, also, wishing for more money in my account.

●      Loving

I am loving myself, Mamamoo, my family, my friends, everything else that makes me happy.

●      Making

I am making up my blog and vlog, my relationships and myself.

●      Enjoying

My progress and who I am becoming. Also enjoying the process of Thursday Reflections.

●      Listening

To Before Love Came To Kill Us by Jessie Reyez

●      Wanting

To be the best of myself that I can be and to be loved.

●      Knowing

We all matter. Regardless of who we are, we matter. Knowing self-love is the best love

●      Feeling

The urge to be the very best of myself and to be me regardless. I am also feeling a bit lonely because of this self-isolation.

●      Admiring

Nayonde of www.thisthingcalledfashionn.com. I am also admiring Hwasa of Mamamoo. On the list is the one and only badgalriri, Robyn Rihanna Fenty.

●      Wearing

Whatever I find comfortable.

●      Excited

What I find exciting is picturing my dreams come true and basking in my glory. I am also excited about my creative side.

Above is what my last Thursday reflection is about and one thing is that having these reflections really has made me see things in new perspectives. Reflecting and putting my thoughts down has become therapeutic for me and I am going to be having more of them. You can join me in Thursdays reflections and let’s meet here every Thursday to dump. Thank you for reading. If you have anything to add, let me know in the comment section. Stay safe and don’t forget to wash your hands. I love you and you matter.